"It Wasn't Funny At All"

👤 Anoymymous Female, 20, Heterosexual
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Illustration by Jamie Borja

 
 

This one day I visited my male cousin. We were both around 17 at the time. We used to be close when we were kids but we grew apart. He was a good-looking boy.

We went to his bedroom upstairs to watch fun Youtube videos. We took turns choosing videos, and we laughed and had fun until it was dark outside. We were both laughing at the video when he put his hand on mine. I was startled a little because he was almost holding my hand. I moved a little, and he let go, pretending like nothing happened...

 
 

Jamie Borja

 
 

I tried not to overthink. He then changed his posture and pressed his arms against mine. As he laughed at the video, he put his hand on my thigh. It was on my bare skin, and I got scared. I didn’t even dare to look at him. I stayed still for a while to see if he would take his hand off but he didn’t. I pretended to change my posture to get his hand off my thigh without making him realize it. When it got darker outside, he asked if we should turn the light off and continue watching. I said no, and told him I had to go home. He agreed and we parted.

It wasn’t funny at all. I wish I had said something when he put his hand on my leg.