I did tell myself to stop, trying to keep what I'd done in the past as a top secret. I need to keep it safe from my girlfriend. That way she's safe from getting hurt too.
A lot of people, including me, have been discussing whether we can love more than one person at a time. For now, it remains a mystery. I sometimes wish there's a button which I can press and become single for a moment so I can fuck any hot girls out there without being guilty.
Maybe I'm justifying myself, but I believe there's no way you can only get turned on by one person in a lifetime.
I wouldn't like it though, if my girlfriend did it with other guys. If she does, she better keep the secret well, so I don't have to know. If we both do it and zip it up, then it's a win-win situation. We get to love each other and have some fun at the same time. Fair enough.
Or maybe there's no such thing as honesty when it comes to love. Because love happens all the time. It's just that some kind of love lasts longer while some only lasts for a moment.
Fuck love. ■